|| MY RANTS ||14:15
17 March, 2010
Mm. There's one song i'm addicted to now.
:"Lady Antebellum - Need You Now."
So. It's been a long time since i've updated.
To say the truth, i've been quite busy these days.
In fact, allow me to say, VERY busy. @_@
Say whatever you want, consider it only excuses or not,
I DONT CARE. It's the truth, whether you believe it or not.
So. Updates on the last week or so.
It's gonna be a long post, for i've got lots to say. xD
It's been a long week, loads of things happened..
So allow me to recall my memories and vent out my feelings.
And if you think i'm depressing, you're welcome to hit the
Alt + F4 key. Go on.
I'll start with March 6th. It's when all those hectic-ness
and craziness started. And it's been the start of my emo-ness.
Been feeling ups and downs loads since then. More like
being very happy and then very unhappy in an instant.
Seriously, i suspect that i'm mentally estranged.
March 6th. Saturday.
Got gastric pain after school hours.
Missed a chance at mock debate with my favourite trainer. =(
Ooh. Tough. T_T Passed two hours plus grasping at my stomach
like mad. Remind me never to experience that again. It
seriously hurts. And seriously affected me talking normally.
March 7th. Sunday.
Allow me to change languages. =D
跟秀欣, 进益, 亦柔, 俊杰一起去看 "大人不见了".
MILO老师和EUGENE老师有演呢 XD 去支持他们.
可是哈.. 我们去看的那场只有我们5个初三的和以思和诗韵去看.
哈哈 然后有三张废票.. =='
不过很好玩呐 XD 过后一起去 OldTown 吃午餐~
一边吃 一边聊. 经过这次的外出, 更加认识了他们~
所以很开心 =) 以后要多多多多看演出 =]
March 8th. Monday.
学会. 一向都是很开心的 =D
March 11th. Thursday.
放学后, 练习交流会的舞蹈 =D
超开心的, 开始喜欢舞蹈 XD
然后试游戏.. 哈哈~
别人好奇的眼神不会影响我们,
我们依然那么开心的喧哗, 玩..
那个坐下来的游戏, 试了好多好多次,
依然很乱, 依然做不到, 坐不到 XD
直到最后几次, 终于办到了, 大家真的好开心,
好有成就感 =)
得到一个很糟的消息, 戏剧比赛, 取消了.
顿时 stun到.. 突然 好失望.
好想哭.
毕竟, 花了好多心思,
毕竟, 是很多人很多筹委的最后一年,
毕竟, 是个全新的形式, 很受欢迎,
毕竟, 今年本来会很好玩的, 今年的比赛形式更有意义,
毕竟, 是我们第一年的小品演出,
我们难得可以自己导三部戏, 展示给全校的人看,
我知道很多参赛者很期待这次比赛,
我们学会被选中的那三位导演明年应该都毕业了,
好多好多因素..
而且.. 联课给的理由, 我难以接受.
可是能怎么办? 只能接受吧..
明年, 会办到更好, 会邀请校友回来看吧..
因为, 这将是他们的遗憾..
硕安说, 明年应该是我办的.
我有吓到咯, 我没想到可能是我..
可是, 如果真的是我..
我希望明年可以帮他们办得更好,
希望, 不会让他们失望..
真的, 大多数伤心的心情, 是替他们感到遗憾吧.
当我告诉了筹委, 戏剧比赛取消了.
真的 不开心呢.
March 12th. Friday.
今天, 本来是剧本说明会.
后来, 只能在第二次下课告诉全部参赛者
戏剧比赛被取消的消息.
当时, 我真的很伤心,
我没得出席, 我为何要去参赛?
为何不能跟他们一起, 好好做个了当?
道歉, 看到各位脸上的失望, 一定会不开心.
可是, 没得站在一起, 身为筹委副主席,
一起道歉, 然后一起伤心, 我更加不开心.
为何要去比赛? 在比赛场所, 我根本心不在焉.
我的心, 在光前堂, 我在想, 他们此时, 会怎样?
伤心, 抱在一起哭? 还是..
毕竟, 是一起开始的, 应该一起结束..
就是因为那样, 我昨天真的很伤心, 更伤心.
第二节后, 就去了KDU, 准备debate比赛.
说实在, 当时我很希望可以留校, 至少到第二次下课后..
Anyways, we reached KDU around..
Okay so i forgot when. Haha.
Anyways.. Briefing.. Lunch.. Erm.
Skip those. Round 1.
Okay.. Round 1 : we lost xD
I suck at 1st speaker, totally panicked.
Lost to Sri Permata (which came out the champion woww.)
And yeaa.. We lost badly. xD
Team B too. Haha.
Then.. Round 2. (we won yayy.) Lol.
Remind me that i love 2nd speaker xD
I definitely like being 2nd than 1st.
And hanrong definitely should be 3rd. xD
Leaving cj to be 1st.
And the seatings remained so for the whole time later.
(Couldn't be happier with the arrangements. =)
And.. Yea. Went back home to sleep at 8pm.
March 13th. Saturday.
Round 3. We won. Erm. Yea. I forgot.
Round 4. We won. Erm. Forgot again.
Either Round 3 or 4 we got against CHS.
They were pr0! Wow. Close margin at 0.5..
Close indeed. xD And they were fluent like.. 0o.
Should learn fluent english ar..
Was totally surprised the adjudicator gave us the win. @_@
And =YAYY= i'm starting to love reply speeches =]
The adjudicator said i was okay xD
So that made me think that i love being 2nd speaker more. xD
Lol. Good thing i guess? Haha.
Round 5. Silent round. We were awful.
Hanrong went out halfway for an elocution competition.
OUCH. It just proved that hanrong is the reason we made it so far.
Went back home hoping we'll get into the octos.
March 14th. Sunday.
WE GOT INTO THE OCTOS!!! Both Team A and Team B~
So excited lolx. xD
Anyways hanrong aimed for semis. (Me too)
Cj was just quite contented edi. (Lol?)
So.. Erm.
Team A got into quarters, team B didn't..
Pity for team B.. They didn't understand the motion. (LOL)
Anyways enjoyed the octos TREMENDOUSLY. xD
Was talking about potatoes and bread and FAKE I-PHONES.
Everyone went LOL xD I just talked crap for like..
In my 7min speech and the reply speech. Haha.
One of my fav round. =D
We got through to quarters. And fell =]
Lost to MBS. Expected it, we set up a reall weak case..
And they were. 0o PRO. Haha. So no complaints.
Watched the semis. KGV vs MBS.
KGV won. ==' Though i thnk that their mannerisms are..
Not my style. Haha. But they were AGGRESIVE.
No wonder Team B lost to them..
Watched the finals. KGV vs Sri Permata.
(Wow. Team A lost to SP and Team B lost to KGV @_@)
It was a nice battle. =D Though somehow i thnk tht
KGV lost their standard.. A little.
Sri Permata rose to be champs. ^^
Congrats to them =] I totally support them.
Compared to KGV.. LOL. Best speaker of that round is good.
Tsubasa was kinda ELEGANT. And i prefer it to aggresive. xD
Hanrong was top 2nd best speaker of all competitions.
Whoa. Congrats. xD Tied with Tsubasa.
Definitely a good choice.
But the best speaker of all was shrimp.. OUCH.
Maybe i shouldnt be too prejudiced.. Haha.
Anyways, March 14th isnt a good day for me..
Holds some.. Sad memories..
I didnt sms him like i had thought i would
All those times..
I guess.. I still dont have the guts..
白色情人节快乐。祝你幸福。
我的部落格，一年了.. 谢谢你的陪伴。 =)
I'm afraid to say.. I cried again today..
There's too much things to hold it up inside..
I gotta release it.. And the tears gave me the release..
March 15th. Monday.
交流会!!! 期待已久了~
早上去赶工 ==' 唉。
谢谢俊杰伊雯还有那些帮我涂颜色的人! =]
很多会员迟到 =( 点名够力麻烦。
看别的学校几准时? paisehh 到..
当时除了筹委和几个会员就没人在, 哈哈..
不过交流会不错好玩的~^^
有认识到几个人..
俊城不错会lans0k的咯~xD
爱上主题舞蹈..=]
"爱就宅一起" - 罗志祥
然后各校的短剧也不错 =D
总之, 还蛮开心 =]
至少付出的努力有少许成果吧..
虽然这次的交流会还没那么成功~
不过 以后可以更加更加加油! =D
检讨会开了蛮久..
得出的结论, 不错, 只是没带出内涵..
说实在, 是真的没什么交流到..
可是, 还不算没意义吧 =)
还是有主动认识几个人~^^
March 16th. Tuesday.
回校处理领养厕所计划。
被骂. 是我的错吗?
是我带领你们带得不够好,
是我没交代清楚吗?
真的.. 当时很想哭, 可是还是忍住了.
我不要, 不会! 在你们面前哭.
你们 不值得.
我想, 要付出的话, 至少让我觉得你们值得.
然而, 我没感觉到.
你们 不值得我的付出.
不值得我受委屈.
我不是说我没错.
也许, 是我的问题.
我不懂我不懂我不懂!!!
自从去年, 我渐渐的对班上的行政没兴趣.
因为, 我总是失望.
我的付出, 只能换来委屈吗?
我不要了. 我宁愿放弃, 我不要!!!
也许是我放了太多感情进我的责任.
或许, 我应该漠不关心.
可是, 要怎样?
一旦负起了责任, 我无法不去关心.
无法不尽力做好它.
算了, 厕所的事吗?
敷衍做了它好了, 五月一过, 我不用再理了.
它, 不值得我那么操劳.
反正, 就一间厕所罢了不是吗?
就那样, 我不管了.
我发誓, 如果对象不值得, 我再也不去负起那份责任.
我不要了, 我不要再付出, 却换来受伤.
不是我要计较..
去年也是, 今年, 也是..
我渐渐失去了信心.
至少, 去年的班委合作!
至少, 我知道有人挺我..
今年? 除了我的那几个朋友, 谁来陪我一起关心?
我无法忍受 那种漠不关心, 那种理所当然.
那么, 我的付出那么的不值?
谁来告诉我???
如果我付出了, 没得到功劳, 我无所谓.
如果你们做得好, 我也可以很满足..
可是, 当我付出了, 却被冤枉, 要怎么办?
我真的真的真的很伤心的!
不要以为我无所谓.
今年, 我不再理这班了.
不须要了.
我宁愿为我的学会奔波, 至少我得到他们的鼓励, 他们的认可!
我喜欢我的学会, 他们的坦白, 他们的安慰, 他们的加油..
他们, 让我觉得我就算再忙也值得!!!
我忙得再累, 再辛苦, 至少我满足!
你说, 他们让我流的是感动的泪, 你们?
让我委屈的哭吗? 一个人哭? 一个人烦?
真的, 为何戏剧学会和三孝的差别那么大..
让我不想再呆在班上了..
恨不得每天上学会就好了..
早上的事, 让我没心情. 让我颓废.
让我对三孝失望.
我哭着去了诊所.
手术前, 我很害怕, 也很生气, 也很伤心.
动了手术, 真的.. 心情糟透.
只想躲起来 一个人哭出来.
一个人静.
回家, 吃不下饭.
吃药, 睡觉.
伤口, 很痛. 心, 麻木了.
只想麻醉自己.
March 17th. Wednesday.
今天在家。嘴巴，很痛。
依然吃不下。
整个脸颊肿了起来。
隐隐作痛，只希望可以早日康复。
真的，很想跟一群朋友外出..
很想念ANTI无理XI..
真的很想你们。
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|| MY RANTS ||14:15
17 March, 2010
Mm. There's one song i'm addicted to now.
:"Lady Antebellum - Need You Now."
So. It's been a long time since i've updated.
To say the truth, i've been quite busy these days.
In fact, allow me to say, VERY busy. @_@
Say whatever you want, consider it only excuses or not,
I DONT CARE. It's the truth, whether you believe it or not.
So. Updates on the last week or so.
It's gonna be a long post, for i've got lots to say. xD
It's been a long week, loads of things happened..
So allow me to recall my memories and vent out my feelings.
And if you think i'm depressing, you're welcome to hit the
Alt + F4 key. Go on.
I'll start with March 6th. It's when all those hectic-ness
and craziness started. And it's been the start of my emo-ness.
Been feeling ups and downs loads since then. More like
being very happy and then very unhappy in an instant.
Seriously, i suspect that i'm mentally estranged.
March 6th. Saturday.
Got gastric pain after school hours.
Missed a chance at mock debate with my favourite trainer. =(
Ooh. Tough. T_T Passed two hours plus grasping at my stomach
like mad. Remind me never to experience that again. It
seriously hurts. And seriously affected me talking normally.
March 7th. Sunday.
Allow me to change languages. =D
跟秀欣, 进益, 亦柔, 俊杰一起去看 "大人不见了".
MILO老师和EUGENE老师有演呢 XD 去支持他们.
可是哈.. 我们去看的那场只有我们5个初三的和以思和诗韵去看.
哈哈 然后有三张废票.. =='
不过很好玩呐 XD 过后一起去 OldTown 吃午餐~
一边吃 一边聊. 经过这次的外出, 更加认识了他们~
所以很开心 =) 以后要多多多多看演出 =]
March 8th. Monday.
学会. 一向都是很开心的 =D
March 11th. Thursday.
放学后, 练习交流会的舞蹈 =D
超开心的, 开始喜欢舞蹈 XD
然后试游戏.. 哈哈~
别人好奇的眼神不会影响我们,
我们依然那么开心的喧哗, 玩..
那个坐下来的游戏, 试了好多好多次,
依然很乱, 依然做不到, 坐不到 XD
直到最后几次, 终于办到了, 大家真的好开心,
好有成就感 =)
得到一个很糟的消息, 戏剧比赛, 取消了.
顿时 stun到.. 突然 好失望.
好想哭.
毕竟, 花了好多心思,
毕竟, 是很多人很多筹委的最后一年,
毕竟, 是个全新的形式, 很受欢迎,
毕竟, 今年本来会很好玩的, 今年的比赛形式更有意义,
毕竟, 是我们第一年的小品演出,
我们难得可以自己导三部戏, 展示给全校的人看,
我知道很多参赛者很期待这次比赛,
我们学会被选中的那三位导演明年应该都毕业了,
好多好多因素..
而且.. 联课给的理由, 我难以接受.
可是能怎么办? 只能接受吧..
明年, 会办到更好, 会邀请校友回来看吧..
因为, 这将是他们的遗憾..
硕安说, 明年应该是我办的.
我有吓到咯, 我没想到可能是我..
可是, 如果真的是我..
我希望明年可以帮他们办得更好,
希望, 不会让他们失望..
真的, 大多数伤心的心情, 是替他们感到遗憾吧.
当我告诉了筹委, 戏剧比赛取消了.
真的 不开心呢.
March 12th. Friday.
今天, 本来是剧本说明会.
后来, 只能在第二次下课告诉全部参赛者
戏剧比赛被取消的消息.
当时, 我真的很伤心,
我没得出席, 我为何要去参赛?
为何不能跟他们一起, 好好做个了当?
道歉, 看到各位脸上的失望, 一定会不开心.
可是, 没得站在一起, 身为筹委副主席,
一起道歉, 然后一起伤心, 我更加不开心.
为何要去比赛? 在比赛场所, 我根本心不在焉.
我的心, 在光前堂, 我在想, 他们此时, 会怎样?
伤心, 抱在一起哭? 还是..
毕竟, 是一起开始的, 应该一起结束..
就是因为那样, 我昨天真的很伤心, 更伤心.
第二节后, 就去了KDU, 准备debate比赛.
说实在, 当时我很希望可以留校, 至少到第二次下课后..
Anyways, we reached KDU around..
Okay so i forgot when. Haha.
Anyways.. Briefing.. Lunch.. Erm.
Skip those. Round 1.
Okay.. Round 1 : we lost xD
I suck at 1st speaker, totally panicked.
Lost to Sri Permata (which came out the champion woww.)
And yeaa.. We lost badly. xD
Team B too. Haha.
Then.. Round 2. (we won yayy.) Lol.
Remind me that i love 2nd speaker xD
I definitely like being 2nd than 1st.
And hanrong definitely should be 3rd. xD
Leaving cj to be 1st.
And the seatings remained so for the whole time later.
(Couldn't be happier with the arrangements. =)
And.. Yea. Went back home to sleep at 8pm.
March 13th. Saturday.
Round 3. We won. Erm. Yea. I forgot.
Round 4. We won. Erm. Forgot again.
Either Round 3 or 4 we got against CHS.
They were pr0! Wow. Close margin at 0.5..
Close indeed. xD And they were fluent like.. 0o.
Should learn fluent english ar..
Was totally surprised the adjudicator gave us the win. @_@
And =YAYY= i'm starting to love reply speeches =]
The adjudicator said i was okay xD
So that made me think that i love being 2nd speaker more. xD
Lol. Good thing i guess? Haha.
Round 5. Silent round. We were awful.
Hanrong went out halfway for an elocution competition.
OUCH. It just proved that hanrong is the reason we made it so far.
Went back home hoping we'll get into the octos.
March 14th. Sunday.
WE GOT INTO THE OCTOS!!! Both Team A and Team B~
So excited lolx. xD
Anyways hanrong aimed for semis. (Me too)
Cj was just quite contented edi. (Lol?)
So.. Erm.
Team A got into quarters, team B didn't..
Pity for team B.. They didn't understand the motion. (LOL)
Anyways enjoyed the octos TREMENDOUSLY. xD
Was talking about potatoes and bread and FAKE I-PHONES.
Everyone went LOL xD I just talked crap for like..
In my 7min speech and the reply speech. Haha.
One of my fav round. =D
We got through to quarters. And fell =]
Lost to MBS. Expected it, we set up a reall weak case..
And they were. 0o PRO. Haha. So no complaints.
Watched the semis. KGV vs MBS.
KGV won. ==' Though i thnk that their mannerisms are..
Not my style. Haha. But they were AGGRESIVE.
No wonder Team B lost to them..
Watched the finals. KGV vs Sri Permata.
(Wow. Team A lost to SP and Team B lost to KGV @_@)
It was a nice battle. =D Though somehow i thnk tht
KGV lost their standard.. A little.
Sri Permata rose to be champs. ^^
Congrats to them =] I totally support them.
Compared to KGV.. LOL. Best speaker of that round is good.
Tsubasa was kinda ELEGANT. And i prefer it to aggresive. xD
Hanrong was top 2nd best speaker of all competitions.
Whoa. Congrats. xD Tied with Tsubasa.
Definitely a good choice.
But the best speaker of all was shrimp.. OUCH.
Maybe i shouldnt be too prejudiced.. Haha.
Anyways, March 14th isnt a good day for me..
Holds some.. Sad memories..
I didnt sms him like i had thought i would
All those times..
I guess.. I still dont have the guts..
白色情人节快乐。祝你幸福。
我的部落格，一年了.. 谢谢你的陪伴。 =)
I'm afraid to say.. I cried again today..
There's too much things to hold it up inside..
I gotta release it.. And the tears gave me the release..
March 15th. Monday.
交流会!!! 期待已久了~
早上去赶工 ==' 唉。
谢谢俊杰伊雯还有那些帮我涂颜色的人! =]
很多会员迟到 =( 点名够力麻烦。
看别的学校几准时? paisehh 到..
当时除了筹委和几个会员就没人在, 哈哈..
不过交流会不错好玩的~^^
有认识到几个人..
俊城不错会lans0k的咯~xD
爱上主题舞蹈..=]
"爱就宅一起" - 罗志祥
然后各校的短剧也不错 =D
总之, 还蛮开心 =]
至少付出的努力有少许成果吧..
虽然这次的交流会还没那么成功~
不过 以后可以更加更加加油! =D
检讨会开了蛮久..
得出的结论, 不错, 只是没带出内涵..
说实在, 是真的没什么交流到..
可是, 还不算没意义吧 =)
还是有主动认识几个人~^^
March 16th. Tuesday.
回校处理领养厕所计划。
被骂. 是我的错吗?
是我带领你们带得不够好,
是我没交代清楚吗?
真的.. 当时很想哭, 可是还是忍住了.
我不要, 不会! 在你们面前哭.
你们 不值得.
我想, 要付出的话, 至少让我觉得你们值得.
然而, 我没感觉到.
你们 不值得我的付出.
不值得我受委屈.
我不是说我没错.
也许, 是我的问题.
我不懂我不懂我不懂!!!
自从去年, 我渐渐的对班上的行政没兴趣.
因为, 我总是失望.
我的付出, 只能换来委屈吗?
我不要了. 我宁愿放弃, 我不要!!!
也许是我放了太多感情进我的责任.
或许, 我应该漠不关心.
可是, 要怎样?
一旦负起了责任, 我无法不去关心.
无法不尽力做好它.
算了, 厕所的事吗?
敷衍做了它好了, 五月一过, 我不用再理了.
它, 不值得我那么操劳.
反正, 就一间厕所罢了不是吗?
就那样, 我不管了.
我发誓, 如果对象不值得, 我再也不去负起那份责任.
我不要了, 我不要再付出, 却换来受伤.
不是我要计较..
去年也是, 今年, 也是..
我渐渐失去了信心.
至少, 去年的班委合作!
至少, 我知道有人挺我..
今年? 除了我的那几个朋友, 谁来陪我一起关心?
我无法忍受 那种漠不关心, 那种理所当然.
那么, 我的付出那么的不值?
谁来告诉我???
如果我付出了, 没得到功劳, 我无所谓.
如果你们做得好, 我也可以很满足..
可是, 当我付出了, 却被冤枉, 要怎么办?
我真的真的真的很伤心的!
不要以为我无所谓.
今年, 我不再理这班了.
不须要了.
我宁愿为我的学会奔波, 至少我得到他们的鼓励, 他们的认可!
我喜欢我的学会, 他们的坦白, 他们的安慰, 他们的加油..
他们, 让我觉得我就算再忙也值得!!!
我忙得再累, 再辛苦, 至少我满足!
你说, 他们让我流的是感动的泪, 你们?
让我委屈的哭吗? 一个人哭? 一个人烦?
真的, 为何戏剧学会和三孝的差别那么大..
让我不想再呆在班上了..
恨不得每天上学会就好了..
早上的事, 让我没心情. 让我颓废.
让我对三孝失望.
我哭着去了诊所.
手术前, 我很害怕, 也很生气, 也很伤心.
动了手术, 真的.. 心情糟透.
只想躲起来 一个人哭出来.
一个人静.
回家, 吃不下饭.
吃药, 睡觉.
伤口, 很痛. 心, 麻木了.
只想麻醉自己.
March 17th. Wednesday.
今天在家。嘴巴，很痛。
依然吃不下。
整个脸颊肿了起来。
隐隐作痛，只希望可以早日康复。
真的，很想跟一群朋友外出..
很想念ANTI无理XI..
真的很想你们。
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